grad school and relationships

i was originally going to write about how i'm still lacking in time management skills... but for now i'll skip that. life has been too interesting to talk about that.

as my graduation from undergrad sneaks closer (may 2012! woohoo!), my brain continues to FREAK OUT about the changes that are about to go on in my life

somewhere other than here.

i don't know if anyone else has ever felt it, though i'm pretty sure that someone has.... but sometimes i get this feeling like i'm in this world, but not. better explanation: i'm standing in the middle of a big room, and this world, all the people i know, the technology, everything, is just spinning around me, all of it just a blur. and i definitely don't want to jump in.

it's like feeling like you're on the outside of something, looking in and watching.

quarter-life crisis?

Yep, that's what I'm going to call it, my "quarter-life" crisis. (Kind of like the mid-life crisis... but not)

Lately, with the lovely lethargicness of my senior year of college kicking in, I've been thinking more and more about what to do with my life. It seems that all of a sudden the strong shoulders I have have crumbled, and the correctly anchored head that I usually have has begun to float into the clouds.

New Mexico... the land of community

About 2ish weeks ago I went to New Mexico!! It was beautiful and eye opening. I went down for work, the SCA paid for the 9 of us NPS apprentices to go see each other one last time, and we covered it for work as a "cultural immersion" trip. Asides from cacti, cedar-junipers, dirt, rocks, dust, mountains, mesas, cliffs, beautiful stars, and warmth, I was also able to see something that most of us in the North East don't get to see much... community.

realization about the internet

I'm crying right now. Tears of joy, tears of frustration, tears of hope, tears of realization.

What caused me to cry?

An add. Yep, a simple add, by Google, on a lyrics site.

there's something about india...

There's something about India that I can't get out of my head. I can't even pinpoint what it is. It's a feeling I've had for years upon years... in fact, it's been so long that I can't even remember when it started.

Where did time go?

It seems like it was only yesterday that it was the 1st of July and I was learning my most important time-management lesson about projects I've ever learned. It seems like there was no July after that, and somehow it's August. It's amazing, how just having the house (I live with my parents still) to myself, all alone with my cats, makes me realize how fast time truly has flown by.