it's... thursday! another rambling piece...

honestly, there's a few things i'd like to touch on, this will likely be a ramble, and it will likely have something to do with any or a few of these things: anxiety, planning, laughing, beer, hilarity, children, nakedness, and card games.

yea... that's a pretty good way to start that.

I'm not religious, but I'm spiritual.

No, I'm not agnostic either. I'm not an atheist  I'm not a Christian, a Jew, Muslim, Buddhist... None of those. If you want to label me, label me a Pagan. But that doesn't mean I can't enjoy the writing in the "Holy" books of religions. Nor does that mean I'm a skyclad devil-worshiper.

24 Hour Comic Challenge

This weekend I participated in a 24 Hour Comic Challenge ( website! )! AND I DID IT. Basically, you have 24 hours to do a 24 page comic, planned, sketched, inked, and written. I did it, with 4 hours to spare, and learned actually quite a bit about myself. Oh... and I was sick for it...

Oregon? Who would want to go there?

Me. Of course. Well, that's exactly it. I'm heading to Oregon in April. I hope to keep the blog going much better than I have lately. Recently, my life has been flying. It seems like every day has turned into a blur, one day it's the first of March, the next, it's the 11th! I haven't been taking enough time for myself, which is what I really want to discuss in this post.

the time for doing what you're thinking of was yesterday.

and isn't that the truth. stop holding back from doing what you've been contemplating and thinking over all these moments. just go do it. seriously. the time to do it was yesterday!

wow it's been a while, and things have changed!

Wow, so it's been a long time since I've last published something on here. A very long time.

Things have been changing in my life, and i'm sure a lot of 20-something year olds  that are blessed enough to go to college are going through the same thing.

I graduated college in May, and wow things have been busy. I've had many insights before and after that that definitely need to be shared.

Found this in my drafts. It's about my cat.

This is my cat.

His name is Woodstock.

He's 8 years old.

I've known him since he was about 5 days old.

Sometimes I call him "Mooch". (both from the comic Mutts, and because he mooches food off my other cat).

The past 3 days he's been in my dreams.

He's my little sunshine.

He gives me allergies.

we are all something in this life

That's right, I said it, we are all something in this life. Let me explain... If I were to label myself based on the relationships I've had with others, I would label myself as a Helper. It's getting a bit into my personal beliefs, but I believe that everyone is here for a reason. Let me explain why I believe this, and why I think I'm a Helper.

life can throw curveballs like a pro

Let's just say things have been extremely busy for me. I've been going through a lot of ups and downs in the past two months.

The high of all of it: going to Costa Rica for two weeks
The low of all of it: Getting broken up with at the airport

But with all of this comes many life lessons.

grad school and relationships

i was originally going to write about how i'm still lacking in time management skills... but for now i'll skip that. life has been too interesting to talk about that.

as my graduation from undergrad sneaks closer (may 2012! woohoo!), my brain continues to FREAK OUT about the changes that are about to go on in my life

somewhere other than here.

i don't know if anyone else has ever felt it, though i'm pretty sure that someone has.... but sometimes i get this feeling like i'm in this world, but not. better explanation: i'm standing in the middle of a big room, and this world, all the people i know, the technology, everything, is just spinning around me, all of it just a blur. and i definitely don't want to jump in.

it's like feeling like you're on the outside of something, looking in and watching.

quarter-life crisis?

Yep, that's what I'm going to call it, my "quarter-life" crisis. (Kind of like the mid-life crisis... but not)

Lately, with the lovely lethargicness of my senior year of college kicking in, I've been thinking more and more about what to do with my life. It seems that all of a sudden the strong shoulders I have have crumbled, and the correctly anchored head that I usually have has begun to float into the clouds.

New Mexico... the land of community

About 2ish weeks ago I went to New Mexico!! It was beautiful and eye opening. I went down for work, the SCA paid for the 9 of us NPS apprentices to go see each other one last time, and we covered it for work as a "cultural immersion" trip. Asides from cacti, cedar-junipers, dirt, rocks, dust, mountains, mesas, cliffs, beautiful stars, and warmth, I was also able to see something that most of us in the North East don't get to see much... community.

realization about the internet

I'm crying right now. Tears of joy, tears of frustration, tears of hope, tears of realization.

What caused me to cry?

An add. Yep, a simple add, by Google, on a lyrics site.

there's something about india...

There's something about India that I can't get out of my head. I can't even pinpoint what it is. It's a feeling I've had for years upon years... in fact, it's been so long that I can't even remember when it started.

Where did time go?

It seems like it was only yesterday that it was the 1st of July and I was learning my most important time-management lesson about projects I've ever learned. It seems like there was no July after that, and somehow it's August. It's amazing, how just having the house (I live with my parents still) to myself, all alone with my cats, makes me realize how fast time truly has flown by.

I'm famous! Not really... but I am in the newspaper

Life has been wicked busy lately. Work has seemingly taken over my life. I've been working on this youth program to get kids out onto the river and learning about Wild and Scenic Rivers... see link below! That's my program!
Junior River Rangers

my life has suddenly become a typical hero/adventure story...

it's been a while since i last wrote. i apologize. sometimes real life really grabs onto that noose we all wear and doesn't let go.

apparently i've been working on this post since like 3 weeks ago. do i remember what i was going to write? nope. but we're winging it here.

life can throw you some unexpected turns and some big realizations. i'll recount many of them here... hopefully some bigger picture lessons will show up as well.

when did i turn into an adult?!

It's an early day for me... I was at the office at 8AM... and then I had to drive to my other office... for 10AM... needless to say, I've had a lot of time to think about life...

As I was driving along, a thought came to me... A year ago I would still be sleeping right now, I wouldn't be stressed out about projects, I wouldn't be worrying about deadlines, especially because it's the summer... and then... out of nowhere... I laughed, and I asked myself... Since when did I grow up?!

happiness within yourself

Realize you can be happy

this moment for no reason. 

Otherwise, you eternally depend on conditions for happiness. 

Unconscious of this moment, 

you remain a victim of circumstances.

Arthur D. Saftlas